I know, I know. . .I've been here before. I'll be here again. My subconscious mind is going like a whirling dervish! Spinning around and around; my conscious mind is "buffering" because my subconscious is demanding for resolution. Yet, the effects of the Spiritual Work I've put in are showing up. Where before I felt trapped in the shadow; I now am somehow being strengthened BY my Shadow. This time IN my Shadow is as important to my well being as the work I've done attempting to "bypass" my Shadow.
As I write, I feel compassion for My Shadow Self. In this moment, I realize that I've been holding my breath; and by doing so, restricting the Inspiration of Spirit. So, now I exhale and let go.