It's been 30 days since I competed in the Mr and Miss Puerto Vallarta bodybuilding competition as a 58-year-old bikini competitor. It's been a difficult 30 days. . .

For some time, I've said that I want a "state-of-the-art" training facility. Since the competition, I've noticed that I am irritable. I would even go so far as to say that it's a "low-level depression". Training for something has always excited me. Counting down the weeks to. . .planning my training sessions. . .charting my progress; these are my "happy" activities. So, what's wrong?

Well. . ."Nothing, except I LOVE TRAINING!" I've been telling myself that I am in off-season. However, it doesn't feel like an off-season. It feels like a slump. You see, working out without an end goal feels like the "end of the road". Stay with me. . .

I actually did a search on "the difference between training and working out". Here's what I found,

"Training is a method of exercising with a more specific purpose or end goal. Exercising as part of a training plan is much more strategic; think of it as exercising with the long game in mind. Training generally involves working out in a structured format to measure progress and performance." https://www.today.com/diet-fitness

Why is this important? Well, actually it may not be important to someone else; but it is to me. I'm 17 days to my 59th birthday and I'm intentionally gaining clarity about Me:

• How I Operate
• What gives me a sense of Purpose
• How I Relate to Myself and Others
• What does ALL of this Mean?

It would be great if I wrapped up this post with some epiphany. But here's the thing. . .gaining clarity (for me) means going into the Unknown of asking Myself, "Why Do I Do What I Do?"

Today's Training Session with my "trusty" notebook, marking off seated chest press:

Today was Chest and Back Day. . .